Midnight Pondering

 I'm back.

It's 4 minutes before midnight and since sleep has been eluding me, I'd like to put my thoughts on here.

Let me ask you. Yes you.

Has there ever been a time in your life when...you think you have become agnostic?  

Growing up in a very conservative Roman Catholic Religion I find this a dilemma.  I can't even tell a single soul about this. All my closest friends are like me-religious.

You might be wondering what led me to this situation. 

 See, I've been praying for good things to come. I did my part.  I obeyed  his rules. 

BUT nothing. 

Nothing is happening. 

Sometimes I think God is unfair. I wish I could just write everything here. But I can't.  I'd probably even delete this  post later.  

Or who knows? Maybe this is just a phase.  Yeah? 

Well, thanks for stopping by.

Goodnight. Goodmorning.

I'll try to write some more in the days to come.

Sampaloc Lake

I used to go to lake much smaller than this in my teens. I would pour out my heartaches on pieces of  paper-then I would tear them to pieces and scatter them on the lake. Almost  instantly I'd feel guilty because I was polluting it.